mc-tha-pie

2012-02-08T05:26:00.001-08:00

It takes forever to get my old skin tone back.
*Emo shit*

The ones in my life.

2012-02-02T20:25:00.001-08:00

I love everyone of my friends. They are so sweet. They are not emotional. They are all good looking :p I just..couldn't describe how much I love em' but my love will still remain even though they bully me ( always ) ...even though we argue.... ( sometimes )...

They are so different...more like a family <3 I do not have many friends but I think I'm lucky, because I have them. We are now all apart...but I feel that our relationship is still growing... :D everyone of you....no left out! Mr.woo, you too! Do not be emotional too often, try your best :p should smile&laugh like me :3 HaHa

Proud to say, I have some awesome bffs! And you? :)

Dilemma.

2012-01-29T22:54:00.000-08:00

How was your new year? Mine one was super awesome with my friends and family together. Went to the Penang Island with my friends few days ago for a 3 days 2 nights trip. We had fun. I miss that trip, we all together, crapping about shitz & all. Well, I paid a lot for this trip. Not about the money, but all about my skin. I hate myself looking so dull right now. Sooo dirty looking and UGLY. My skin has break outs and I can not feel even 1% of moisture under it.

I'm not kidding. I'm serious for this. I can't stand with me in brown sugar cane skin like this. I'm so upset, everything you can call for sadness. This is all because I can hardly get back to the fairer skin once I got into the situation like this. This is why I hate beaches&sunshine. This combination is just not my thing. I'm not into that, obviously. But I had no choice but to join my friends to the beach. It was fun, happy, and memorable but it would be better without the sunshine. HOOLALA! :(

It will be a very shitty long & meaningless post if I continue talking at this brown sugar cane skin thing. I bet you don't really care about my skin condition, right? :( but anyway, I really really really want to get my fair skin back in days! Howwwwww ? Emo.com

Besides, I'm in a total dilemma right now. Again, about my education. My dad wants me to continue my study. He asked me to transfer to another Uni for degree. I'm lost. What should I do? I don't know what I want.... I wanted to work, but I'm sooo worry. Working must be so tiring and difficult. As the same, study is not easy also when it comes to assignment&finals. I wish there'll be someone who gives me the best advices and help me to get out of this dilemma. Work/study? I know working must be so hard. I will be regret for that. But, I believe in myself. There's no turning point once I've decided to give up on studies. The only thing to do is WORK. So anyhow, I still have to WORK. WORKING is the only thing I can do if I.......

Urgh! Dilemma!

sneak peak.

2012-01-25T02:58:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was the highlight of this lunar year. Had hell lot of fun with my bffs.

Saw some people posted they are so sad because they are all alone, without partners' companion.

But I'm happy, with all my friends.

Once again, happy CNY! Don't stop the PARTYYYY!

:D

2012-01-21T04:30:00.000-08:00

Happy lunar year everyone!
<3

HUAT AH!

Just can't wait for the lunar lunar!

2012-01-19T03:00:00.000-08:00

I just can't wait to dress myself up for this coming CNY! I mean which girl doesn't like to doll herself up? What's wrong to make ourself look better? What's the big deal to make ourself happy by dolling up? Well, I know it might be weird for you to dress up in a bunch of nerds, like what I do in school ( studying in a college with mostly boring people ). They alwayssss look at you, like REALLY look, saying:" omg, look at this girl, what she wants? Such a bitch/attention seeker!" Then, you will end up being a loner in such place. " Well, you people do not have the right to judge people those who love themselves looking better because you girls look so awful and don't even put some efforts on it! ", this is what I want to say BYATCH!

Sorry for getting so angry because I really can't stand with those bloody nerdy girls who judge people like they are the champions! Okay, let's cool myself down :p before I start telling story about the nerds. Haha

Woohoo! I mean it's really exciting to get yourself all dolled up in new outfits, putting on make-ups, have a very nice hair-do. These are what a girl should do! See the reflection of yourself in the mirror, with a pretty face and outfit, that's gonna make you a good good day :D

These days, I am TOTALLY in love with everything in nude colour. I personally think that outfits in nude look extra gorgeous, soft, and of course feminine. So I bought most of my outfits in that colour and I'm in love with em'. :p Not to forget to mention that I love sexy looking dresses/blouses/top tanks. Anyhow, some people are definitely gonna judge at you if you are wearing something a little bit too sexy in Malaysia. I don't know why. That's the culture over here :( Too bad, I really love dresses which are in low cuts and not too long.

Anyway, I'll be back with photos! I love taking photos. Gonna share em' at here. HATERS GONNA HATE. so I don't care! Puff!!!!

Xoxo

2012-01-13T05:25:00.000-08:00

Hello people, how was your Christmas eve's celebration? Mine was pretty simple. Went to have some drinks with few of my bffs and we were all went tipsy after few rounds of card game. lolol

okay, of course I know christmas is not the point anymore because CNY is right there around the corner. But anyway, this is how I looked like on 24th 12 2011.

Been facing a very serious problem these days. I'm having a very seriouuussssss insomnia. I sleep at 9am everyday, ALMOST! OR maybe 1pm. wth! This causes my skin getting worst and of course my body circulation. I really have no idea how to deal with it so I went to the pharmacy and asked for the sleeping pills but apparently it didn't really work. I felt dizzy right after I took it and my body was very very weak in the second day. URGH! I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I'M SO UPSET RIGHT NOW BECAUSE OF THIS, I GOT ACNE PROBLEM AND OF COURSE THE PRETTY CIRCLES ON MY DAMN FACE AGAIN. emooooooooooooooooooooo!

URGH whatever, I wish I will be able to get rid of this ASAP. @@!!

Merry Christmas and the Happy New Year!

命运，或选择。

2012-01-08T13:05:00.001-08:00

有时候看着活了半个世纪的老人，心总会揪了起来。还记得有一次我走在路上，不远的转角处有一位老伯，正费力地推着那后座载着厚厚一叠纸皮箱的老铁马，顶着一头汗水一步一步慢慢地走着。就在这一秒，纸皮箱因绳子绑得不牢固而掉了一地。我赶紧地走向前帮忙老伯整理散了满地的纸皮箱，眼泪也不由自主地流了下来。心想着那么老的年纪还必须干这么苦的活，好心酸。。好几次忍不住跟朋友分享这种心情，他们都说这可能是他们想坚持的事情。干点活儿，消磨消磨时间。听着听着也觉得蛮有道理的，不过五味杂全的心情在每一次看见一样的情景的时候，又再一次浮现。

然而，同人不同命。有些人，在这种年纪的时候，都在享着清福。比起带着一身病痛还在埋头苦干的老人幸福多了吧。不过往往事情都不会完美。他们快乐吗？这是一个问号。

在他们年轻的时候一定经历过好多好多事情。或许他们不能控制游戏开始的优先条件。不过后续，也就是现在，必然是他们的决定。由他们的方式，持续到今天的成就，或生活。

二十出头的我们还在犹豫。在苦恼着未来的方向。或许不是每一个我们。当然比较幸运的他们，会少了苦恼这一个阶段。饭来张口的生活替他们省下不少苦头。然而，后续的发展谁都不敢保证。故事，还是得靠自己的方式走完。

或许这一切都是命运的安排。你出生在这个世界就是命运的开始。良好的优先条件是前者的造就，也是你的命运。好运会不会持续那就是你的选择。或许你富有，但选择了错误的方向。相反的，就算你先天命运不由得你作主，你还是有权力选择。

路是你自己走的。生、老、病、死，是注定。如何在它们之中活得快乐是你的选择。有些人选择放弃，原些人却坚强地走了过老。而每一个有年纪的人，不管他们的身份有多卑微，在我心中，他们都是成功的。他们坚强地走到今天，累积了许多的回忆。有好的，坏的，难忘的，痛苦的。他们的生命不留白。当然，有些人选择结束生命，因为他们没有把握再走下去。我们应该尊重每个人的选择，不管它们是好或坏。我们有权力去劝话，但却没权力去阻止别人的选向。。。

生命是上天给的礼物。珍惜这份礼物，好好地运用才是最好的回报。生命不留白。而我，正在为它上色。偶尔会烦恼，但路还是得走下去。记得，笑容以及宽恕的心永远是最好的调味品。困难无处不在，但也能被打败。

：）

去年的一篇日记。。。

2012-01-01T11:41:00.000-08:00

今天看了外婆的家。。。我好心疼。。戏。。是感人的。。我的心被融化了。。我一生中最爱我的公公婆婆外公外婆。。他们抚养我长大。。我好怕他们离开。。还记得几年前外公去世。。我的心好痛好痛。。我好不舍得他。。公。。我好想念你。。在你心中我永远都是调皮的。。我好后悔没能看着你离去。。在家照顾小孩。。等你的消息。。公。。我好爱好爱你。。你是我的爸爸。。我好怀念一切。。现在看着啊嬷跟婆婆一天比一天老去。。我经常发恶梦。。经常一个人掉泪。。我好怕好怕。。好怕他们离我而去。。啊嬷现在走几步就喊累。。她的步伐好慢好慢。。好慢。。我不舍得走在她前面。。因为我好害怕。。害怕有一天，我再也看不见她的背影了。。。怎么办？如果，不能听见她唠叨我的声音，不能吃她认为拿手的菜。。不能再牵她的手。。不能再抱她。。不能再听她最爱说的人生故事。。怎么办啊。。？我好不舍得。。我怀念她脸上让我心疼的皱纹。。怀念她重复的问题。。啊嬷，你还在的时候我的心已经开始好疼好疼了。。你不在的时候我怎么办？我的外婆。。我叫她婆婆。。她照顾了我十多年。。就像我的妈妈。。虽然以前我常跟你顶嘴。。可是自从我中四转校过后，就再也没有顶撞你了。。因为人长大了，就开始发现我们相处的时间不多了。。每一次有空，我就赶回家看啊嬷跟你。。我还喜欢你可爱的笑容，和你一起有说有笑。。喜欢吃你煮的饭。。我不曾说爱你。。可是在我心里。。真的好爱好爱你！你跟啊嬷就是我的一切。。如果再失去你们。。我还能回哪一个家？还有谁会唠叨我？我还能买东西给谁？我真的不能失去你们。。我好害怕。。我想赚钱。。给点零用钱你们。。因为你们常说等不到那个机会。。我也不想错过那个机会。。。我好怕我来不及付出。。我放弃学业。。我想尽快完成我的梦想。。别人常问我我的理想是什么，而我的答案永远都是以后有一个幸福的家。然后再说我没有梦想。我错了，因为我有梦想。珍惜仅有的时间回报你们就是我大大的梦想。我不知道失去你们以后我会变怎样，不过我不想后悔。。

答应我，请健健康康地活下去。因为你们是我生命中最重要的人。失去了你们，我好怕我没有力气再走下去了。。

2011-12-17T10:48:00.000-08:00

Being single is fun. We get to enjoy certain discretions that couples do not. I'm doing fine. I'm a happy girl. I laugh everyday every hour or almost every minute. Seriously I put a smile on my face almost every second. Ok la, except sleeping time lolol. I hate sadness. That's why I can't stand with those who get emo too often. I will not get influence by them but why should I look at their shitty face?

Anyhow, I'm still a human wtf. Of course I will be feeling down sometimes. But only when I'm all alone...not too frequent...only feeling down for minutes then I'll be fine :D ok lah, if I got a boyfriend, then I will throw a bomb to him ahahhahahaha !

I was so upset but that was few minutes ago. You know... Everyday... You don't get a message/call from anyone... :'( I need someone to pamper me sometimes.... Ok, I know that's impossible for now. I will wait then. Wait for the right one.

...hugging my bolsters. Wiping my tears...trying to be optimistic...

Goodnight.

I'm just saying.

2011-12-14T01:35:00.001-08:00

Christmas will be here in no time. I saw everyone sharing about what they've received as the gifts. Well, I got nothing D': That's fine. #foreveralone

Been planning to get myself a little gift for this coming christmas. But I've no idea what to get. Not a bag, not a bracelet, not a fragrance hmmm.... Maybe a watch? Oh hell no, because I have one with me now and I like it. And I gave up. I spent too much in this month, thousands'd gone for nothing. Thus my last decision will be keeping my money for the coming vacation with my gang during the cny. Not getting a x'mas present is not a big deal. I'm satisfied with all I've now. There are a lot of people out there can't even have a proper meal. #sad #donation #

Anyway, wish y'all a Merry Christmas. I know it's way too early. I'm just saying :p will be back soon for the x'mast.

:-/

2011-12-08T08:49:00.000-08:00

I'm having homesick. My sister came to my place for shopping these days and this is making me missing my home even more.

Anyway, I spent A LOT of money in just a few days. I'm sorry mum. I promise I will not do this anymore once the cny has passed. I swear.

Few thousands gone in just two days...for nothing.....

:'(